Try. What do you want to try next year? Is there something you wanted to try in 2010? What happened when you did / didn’t go for it?
Try. Don’t try harder, try BETTER.
I want to take on a challenge I may very well fail at. I did it in 2009/2010, and came out alive on the other end. So here’s to taking a risk that terrifies you.
I want to try:
Leading a 5.11 outside
A 30-day yoga challenge. YinAnusaraPowerAshtangaHathaBliss!!!!
A meditation retreat – just me and thoughts. Let the mayhem begin
Writing a book. Topic to be determined
In 2010, I wanted to research something that interested me, in a way that didn’t fit within the norms of an institution. I wanted to hear people’s stories, not turn them into numbers. I did it – and apparently the institution didn’t think it was half bad.
So don’t wait to be given the rules. Make your own up as you go, and create your experiences. TRY!
Prompt: Healing. What healed you this year? Was it sudden, or a drip-by-drip evolution? How would you like to be healed in 2011?
Beautiful British Columbia healed me. Breathe in. Damp air. Breathe out and watch the forest grow. Embrace the mountain peaks with softened eyes, feel mossy soil squish between your toes. Let the ocean lap at your ankles. Feel the mist surround you on the Island coast. This is home, this is the earth welcoming you back. Giving you strength to renew your energy, building again from the inside out.
Any worries or anxieties I have, any emotional pain that pervades, is soothed again when I’m surrounded by a grove of trees, or standing at the top of a local mountain. Though I can’t say there was any one magnificent moment of being ‘fixed’, that I am magically ‘healed’, I continue to absorb this energy, feel it rejuvenate me, and come to terms with everything that my home represents, the history and the future.
In travels, I gained a deeper understanding of myself, but it’s at home, standing in the shadow of giants, that I feel my heart beat stronger. It is among the friends who have known me since diapers, since braces, since ill fitting tank tops, that I can come back to myself and feel at ease.
In 2011, I make it my aim to seek healing for the mind. By letting go of anger and frustration and accepting the gloooorious present, expressing this momentum through words and brushstrokes.
Do you feel you have a wound that needs healing? How can you set about healing yourself?
Prompt: Beyond avoidance. What should you have done this year but didn’t because you were too scared, worried, unsure, busy or otherwise deterred from doing? (Bonus: Will you do it?)
The road more traveled.
The time alone in silence.
The book without a plot.
The confrontations for nobility’s sake.
The painting that should soothe me.
The challenges I need help with.
The end and new beginnings.
5 minutes. Imagine you will completely lose your memory of 2010 in five minutes. Set an alarm for five minutes and capture the things you most want to remember about 2010.
Snow in London…my amazing friend Anthony…The Table…my EPR sisters and brothers…the National Theater…coffee shops and Mars bars…Barcelona…surviving exams on my birthday…surviving everything else thrown my way…interviews in Tofino…the view from the Wickanninish Inn…my little bed and breakfast…the Tla-o-qui-aht carver who shared his story with me…handing in my thesis…waiting at the airport for hours…seeing my little cousins in New York for the first time…Paris with my mom…sharing a beer or two over disappointment and shared dreams…hearing stories about two years on the road…meeting Aleksandra…beers and bagels at Bennies…swimming in English Bay after midnight on Halloween…Whistler trips, from hot sunny bike rides and hikes with the dogs to early season days on the slope. And here I am, ready to send it out with a bang. Thanks to everyone who made it amazing!